Tuesday, September 21, 2004

i'm glad that there are some visitors around this site ^^ i dunno why i got so lazy to post some entries at this blog. maybe cause my focus have shifted to my current job *yeah...another excuses from me* why don't you just admit that you are lazy :P *talk to myself* gaah...btw, it's better to talk about my new activity. for the past 3 monhts, i've joined an animation making class at hellomotion. i've learned quite a lot there. now, it's time to do the final project. i have to make a short animation (minimum duration is 30 seconds). i've already made the storyboard. i even had to do a presentation in front of 2 judges *whoa...it was scary..thank god i made it ^^;;* but now is the hardest part, to make the animation itself >___< i'm not good at drawing, and even now, i wonder why i signed up for that class ^^;; *silly girl* i thought that as time goes by, i can improve my drawing, but that didn't happen >___< of course, i know it's my fault for not practising my drawing every day and night. demo, whoaaaaa T____T it's too late now. and fyi, i've been wasting 2 weeks of my time to finish the project >____< i am really in a BIG trouble *suddenly realize* only 2 weeks left for me. pray for me guys, cause i really need somekind of miracle right now T_____T

sinking to the bottom @ 09:22 a.m.

Monday, June 14, 2004

tehee...i finally blog again ^___^ tadaimaaaa XD *feels glad to be back* anyway, what should i write. hmm...i guess i just write about my activities. lately, i've been a lot into drawing. why? cause i've taken an animation making class ^___^ i dunno why i took that class. i think it was a sudden decision. but i didn't regret it. though it's not a cheap thing ^^;; what made me proud is i paid it with my own money *there goes my 2 months salary T____T* okay..okay...stop whining about it. you said you didn't regret it, right? *nods quickly* another activity is english speaking club called Toastmaster International Club. well, i haven't joined yet. but i think i will *err..or not ^^;;* it's the schedule that i'm worried about. too late at night -___- sobs...if only i had someone who could pick me up at that time *sigh* next is japanese course. i think i'm really into language too much ^^;; i plan to take it next month. but it depends on my animation making class. i hope i still can handle the assignments. but my teacher said there will be many assignments to work on *sigh* i really am a whiner, ain't i? there's always something i can complain about. really, i must stop this bad habit. what else? hmmm...oh, next month, i'll attend the reunion for Kumon students. it's a special reunion for student who have completed the Q level. whoaa...i really miss those kids. i remember kevin, he's a naughty kid, but he's cute and chubby ^^;; and i like his hair. it's really straight and always bouncing when he runs ^___^ i think i'll be the oldest one there ^^;; ah, can wait til 17 july XD

sinking to the bottom @ 09:26 a.m.

Tuesday, January 6, 2004

never thought of them that way
this morning i read a few of my friend's entries. and it's like whoaaaaa...i've never thought that most of them are so poetic and serious in thinking about their meaning in life. their writing are so touchy and i got carried away ^^ it feels like i'm reading a writing by a famous writer ^^;; glad to know that they've finally shown their talent in writing ^o^ but...but, what about me? i've been blogging since 2001, and i don't think my skills in writing has been improving ;__; maybe if i write in my mother lang *which is in indonesian* i could express more of my feeling here *just another reason i made up to excuse myself ^^;;* or maybe because i always bring a simple and light topic to talk about. just everyday stuffs that happened to me ^___^ guess the conclution is : everyone has a different style of writing, and what makes them enjoy is the best for each of them. i just stick with mine, and keep enjoy in writing. keep your spirit up girl \(^o^)/

sinking to the bottom @ 08:44 a.m.

Friday, December 19, 2003

just another rubbish ^^;;
just wanna write a little. looks like i've been focusing more on my 2nd blog at here ^^;; hmmpphh...alone in the office. all of them are going to eat lunch together. make me do all the answering telephone and such >__< arrrgghh...when will they come back? or should i just take a nap and ignore all the incoming call? hmmmmm...*grin* nah, i'm a good girl ^^ and will always be a good girl ^^ *are you sure about what you've just said?* blah...i really don't have a good topic to talk about. so, let's finish it now. ja ne ^^;;

sinking to the bottom @ 02:25 p.m.

Tuesday, November 11, 2003

my complete pixel
here's my first complete pixel doll. hehehe..how is it? i know it's not as good as other's doll, but hey, it's my first trial guys, please bear with me ^^;; next day, i'll try to make another clothes for her. hmmmm...looks like i have to find an idea for the clothes. okay, gotta get going now. ciao ciao!

sinking to the bottom @ 03:46 p.m.

Friday, November 7, 2003

pixel art @__@
this is my first try. after 1 hour messing up with mspaint, i finally got this as a result. omg, just for a pair of boots i need an hour??? i really really have to learn more about pixel art >____< this site helped me to make it. although it's a bit different, i'm quite satisfied with the result ^^;; awww....i really wanna buy this kind of boot ^^ *geez, stop it, you're exaggerating too much* waaaa..it's 4.30 pm already, gotta go home. ja!

sinking to the bottom @ 04:21 p.m.

Friday, November 7, 2003

yay...i got sano XD
this morning i took Which Hanakimi boy is right for you? quiz. and yeah, you already knew which one i got from the title of my entry ^__~ *exactly as i want* here's what it said "you got sano! moody and silent, he's the main love interest for mizuki, the sort of guy who isn't very talkative at all, the sort of guy who keeps his feelings, his emotions, and basically everything he's thinking locked up inside. he's, you know, not so much the mysterious type as the brooding type, sexy and with the occasional "i'm so sweet" tendency, though he's not the best conversationalist." hehe...okay, enuff for the quiz
yesterday was so boring, and to make it worse, i got one person bugged me all day *better not to mention the name* gaahh...i don't even want to talk about it here >___< let's just talk about other stuff
i finished reading the Cashflow Quadrant by Robert T Kiyosaki. hmm...guess i have to start thinkin' about my future. my friend who has played the Cashflow game invite me to join her together with a couple of friends. we're gonna play it on nov 15th. i dunno whether i can play it or not. i can't read financial report and such. why did i never get serious studying economy when i was in high school >__< but fear not my friend, better late than never!!! financial freedom, here i come *burning with spirit*

sinking to the bottom @ 09:00 a.m.

Tuesday, November 4, 2003

funny entry for t'day
bwhuahahaha.....i found this at DMB. hahahaha...it's soooo funny ^o^
and this quote, read this: "Confucius say: man who fall asleep with itchy butt wake with smelly finger" huahahahahahhaha...i'm sure confucius didn't say that, but still, it's so funny XD i found that quote in this site
okay, that's all i've found t'day, i'll post more if i found more fun stuffs ^__~

sinking to the bottom @ 03:28 p.m.

Friday, October 31, 2003

halloween's coming....
yesterday my computer was reinstalled cause i couldn't bear the worm which nested in my computer. i don't know what kind of worm it is, i've tried to scan for it but the result was clean. the weird thing was my traffic was always high *said one of my co-worker* so i decided to reinstalled from the beginning, deleted the partition, and then reinstalled the OS and the softwares i needed. and of course i had to spend hours to get it done. thanks god it wasn't useless, now i can enjoy my high speed connection again ^o^
anyway, today's halloween right? i've always wanted to do that since i was a kid, but that's not the tradition of my country especially my religion. but it looks kinda fun, and i'd reaaallly love to wear various costumes. i think it'll be a great night for being a princess, or a witch, or a mummy, or a vampire ... kyaaaa ^o^ *jump in excitement*

sinking to the bottom @ 09:34 a.m.

Thursday, October 23, 2003

i found this cool site couple of days ago. it's called Ruby Gloom. whoaaa....i love the style. i wish i could create and draw that kind of character >____< ok ok, enough screaming, let's talk about other topic.
i think i've deserted this blog long enough, and i'm kinda sad. i've opened another blog of mine at tabulas. currently i named it collection of my thoughts *kinda serious, eh? but believe me it's not ^^;;* my problem with blog is the content. sometimes it's hard to for me to blab about my daily life. either it's too private or i don't know how to express it correctly in english ^^;; *english isn't my mother lang* and now i have two blogs that have to be filled in everyday and my laziness doesn't wanna compromise >___< *gaahhh*

sinking to the bottom @ 01:43 p.m.

Wednesday, October 1, 2003

it's actually the same
t'day i'm one year older *not a very common way to say that t'day is my birthday ^^;;* hmmm....what am i gonna do right now? *have no idea* besides, birthday is not a special day for me. it's just the same as another day. except i get some messages saying happy birthday etc ^^ maybe tonight i'll think about my life more seriously than usual ^^;; umm...ummm....i think i don't have any more topic to type, so i guess that's a wrap. bai bai ^o^

sinking to the bottom @ 02:35 p.m.

Tuesday, September 30, 2003

*tuesday morning in my office* there's a whole bunch of reports that i must finish T____T dealing with clients is the hardest part. arrrrrggghhh!!! i think i must study a lot harder. okiee...that's it for today *i think my entries are going shorter and shorter ^^;;*

sinking to the bottom @ 08:44 a.m.

Thursday, September 18, 2003

job job job
i've been neglecting this blog for so long ^^;; dunno, i just didn't have the will to type ^^ anyway, i've already got a job *finally* it's a nice job *according to me* and fits me well. well, guess it's enough, gotta get back to work now ^o^ *gotta leave nice impression cuz i'm still new ^^;;*

sinking to the bottom @ 08:36 a.m.

Monday, September 8, 2003

Lead the Way

Who would've believed
That you and me would fall
And land together
And who could've foreseen
In you I'd find the place
I've belonged forever

And if I move closer
Then love will take over
And lead the way

I'd given up hope
Losing the faith that love
Could be mine to treasure
And now
Nothing's the same
I found myself reborn
On the day I met you
And if we move closer
Then love will take over
And lead the way

Oh...
Suddenly you are lying
Here with me and the truths
I used to hold have changed

And if I move closer
And let it take over
Then love will lead the way
And let it take over
Then love will lead the way

sinking to the bottom @ 09:43 a.m.

Saturday, September 6, 2003

a fresh graduate's thought
now that i graduated from univ. i'm supposed to be happy, but i'm not. i don't know what's going on in me @___@ maybe i'm not ready yet to leave my previous way of life. i think, inside, i don't wanna growing up ;__; maybe it sounds so selfish, but i really don't know what to do now. i can't make up a decision whether i'm going to continue my study or get a job. aaaarrrrgghhhhh.....what should i do???

sinking to the bottom @ 10:16 a.m.

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

it's getting closer...
being alone in this room makes me thinking about lot of things. one of them is my graduation. it's getting closer and closer. i dunno what i should feel about it. i feel happy *of course, afterall these hard years i've been going through* but at the other side, i feel sad too ;__; i think i'm gonna miss my friends, my lab, my campus, my everything here at fasilkom >___< things will never be the same again when i step out from my campus.

sinking to the bottom @ 01:06 p.m.

Thursday, August 21, 2003

god really creates things in balance
yesterday recruitment test at Astra, i didn't make it ;__; so when i got back home, i thought about it alot. why didn't i make it? i blamed myself for not preparing it wisely. and of course i got jealous of my friends who succeeded. kinda bad looser eh? >__<
and then, still with a bad mood, i went to my english course in the evening. i came late. when i came into the classroom, i saw that my teacher was replaced. but the great news is, that new teacher is my idol teacher. hurrayyyyy ^o^
in the end, i realize that god really creates things in balance ^__^ bad things happen, but great things also happen. so, my message is, don't blame yourself, other people or god when your wishes don't come true even if you've already tried so hard. just believe that god only gives the best thing for you ^__^ *i know it's hard, but let's try our best to accept it*

sinking to the bottom @ 04:30 p.m.

Thursday, August 14, 2003

blaster worm!!!
it started this morning. when i wanted to copy some files from my friend's computer, i can't paste those files to mine >__< i thought that the permission for the files hasn't been set yet. luckily i met my friend and she told me that my computer has been infected by blaster worm ;__; i had to download service pack 3, patch, and removal tool from symantec to kick that worm away. now it's already fixed. hurray XD
if you don't know how to remove that worm, here are some steps that i done:

sinking to the bottom @ 02:55 p.m.

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

damn flu >__<
damn it. why do i have to catch flu at this time T___T now my throat is very itchy and the consequence is i can't stop coughing again and again ;___; i feel very dizzy @____@ guess i have to take more rest tonight and drink vitamin or so *sleepy* Zzzzzz...Zzzzzz...Zzzzzz

sinking to the bottom @ 04:37 p.m.

Tuesday, August 5, 2003

jobless ;__; *sobs*
last saturday i watched 10 Hours Helga Near Kisses at Nickelodeon. it was hillarious XD i feel sorry for Helga. she really has a problem to express her love for Arnold ^^;; maybe i'm a little bit like her, but i don't use violence like her and i don't pick on my crush ^^;; *huaaa...embarrassed already =^-^=* ah...stop talking about this. i'm not used to blab bout my very personal life on the internet ^^;;
now, what i'm supposed to worry about is JOB. practically, now i'm jobless T___T can someone give me a job, please? *pathetic v_v* i want a job that related to web design, but i haven't had any experience yet ;__; *sobs* naah...i should be more confident with myself *that's what my lecturer said* okie, gotta go now, ja!

sinking to the bottom @ 04:09 p.m.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

music class? seems cool ^__~
these past few days is reaaaalyy boring. i don't know what to do @__@ aaarrrrggghhhh.....i wonder what my life would be if i graduated from university >___< and i don't have internet connection at home, sucks! btw, i'm planning to take a piano or violin course. i don't know how to play them, but i'll learn. it seems really cool ^o^ *don't say that you're taking those lesson just to being cool* hehehe....sad but true, that's my motivation ^^;;

sinking to the bottom @ 02:16 p.m.

Thursday, July 24, 2003

free like a bird
whoaaaaaa...finally, this semester is over. and insya allah, the bachelor degree of computer science is already in my hand. hurraaaaay, i'm freeeee V^o^V now it's time to party *kidding* i'm not a party girl. it's time to relax at home or just browsing and downloading as usual ^^;;
btw, lately i've been watching this show: Daria. it's a cool show, you must watch it. the main role, that is, daria, is a very straight girl. she says what she wants to say to others. her face has no expession at all. ummm...ummmm...what else...errr...i'm not really good at explaining things ^^;; but trust me, this show rocks!!! now i'm trying to download these episodes from kazaa, but up to now, the result is BIG ZERO. it's so hard to download, each episode's size is about 200 MB and my internet speed is just 3 KB/sec T___T dang it, i wish there was a shop that sells daria episodes v_v so guys, if you happen to know where to buy it, please tell me *note: only if the shop is in jakarta, okay ^-^* yup, it's enough for today. oh yeah, i'm going to swim with my friends. yahooo....i can't wait for tomorrow ^o^

sinking to the bottom @ 04:40 p.m.

Monday, July 21, 2003

BIG day
*sigh* tomorrow is my BIG day. my graduation will be decided tomorrow >____< waaaaaaaaa....i'm so afraid i can't concentrate v_v *sigh* guess i'm leaving now. ja...

sinking to the bottom @ 03:13 p.m.

Saturday, July 19, 2003

template dilemma *_*
no, it's not as serious as you think ^__~ i've been working on my slide since 10.00 am. but i've always been distracted by anything ^^;; no wonder it haven't finished yet until now ^o^ *hit her own head* now i'm confused about which template should i use, the gold or the blue one. they both are so perfect, and it took me a long time to determine which one to use @_@
naaaah...forget about it. i should practice to present it for the next tuesday and try to guess what questions will be asked in my presentation. wish me luck guys. i really really need a lot of good luck from you ^o^

sinking to the bottom @ 05:14 p.m.

Thursday, July 17, 2003

weird feeling...
today, i feel somehow excited. but on the same time i feel lonely too *weird* i feel excited cause someone made me happy although 'that someone' didn't realize it ^-^ but i do hope that 'that someone' will realize it.
i don't know the reason i feel lonely today, i just feel it that way, and i don't think i must have a reason for feeling lonely *errrr...what's the point of this silly post ^^;;* hohoho...i must be going crazy ^o^ *don't mind me*
*stare at the monitor.......* errr...i don't know what else should i write now. hmmmmmm...lemme think....Oh, i didn't do my best on yesterday's test v_v damn!!! and yesterday, i got a very bad headache cause i skipped lunch @__@ i felt so miserable cause of it. and to make it dissapear, i had to sleep all night, no other medicine can cure me beside that....
suddenly, i feel pointless right now *heh...such a sudden change. looks like my mood is going up and down very fast just like a roller coaster* read these questions: what's the point of my life? what is it that i try to achieve? what's my purpose in life?
have you ever felt like this before? have you ever questioned yourself these questions? is it somekind of mid 20 syndrome? ...... *please don't take it seriously*

sinking to the bottom @ 04:12 p.m.

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

misery brings happiness o_O
hurraaaaaayyyy XD remember the presentation i've told you before in the previous entry? today we've done it finally. and guess...we got an A ^o^ kyaaaaaa....i'm sooooo happy ^___^ kyaaaaa....*can't stop screaming and jumping* my friend said we did great job for our presentation. up til now, i'm still one step closer in getting my bachelor degree ^^;; i hope i'll do my best for my internship presentation. whoa....i'm so sleepy right now. i didn't sleep well last night cause we have to finish our slide for the presentation. and this evening, i'm having a progress test at my english course. hhhhh....i don't know whether i can handle it or not. guess it's enuff for today. ja!

sinking to the bottom @ 02:31 p.m.

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

why is it so sudden ???
noooooooooo.....presentation date for my group's student project is already set!!! it's tomorrow!!! why why why >____< uwaaaaaa......we haven't relaxed yet from this chaos. we haven't made our slide for the presentation. we haven't practiced yet, we haven't even choosed our costumes so they will be matched with each others ^^;; *so girlish, always try their best to look good ^o^* what should we do??? [panick mode on] we can only pray that we're doing just fine tomorrow. uwaaaaaaa.....*though panick can't help us to solve the problem, i'm still doing it right now v_v*

sinking to the bottom @ 05:54 p.m.

Friday, July 11, 2003

*MAD*
today is one of the HARD DAY of my life T____T i feel like crying right now *sobs...sobs* but i don't wanna show it in front of my friends. this is all because that damn internship report. it's just a report, but it can makes my life so miserable. arrrgghh..i'd better stop talking about this. stop regretting things!!! i have to learn to face this kinda situation v_v
grow up girl, be an adult, be wise, and be brave!!! *some kind of motivation to myself, dunno whether it'll work or not ^^;;*

sinking to the bottom @ 05:30 p.m.

Thursday, July 10, 2003

romeo and juliet, love or lust?
i found this topic in dodo's msg board. when i saw it, without thinking it over i answered it's a LUST. i have to remind you, this answer came from a girl who has had no bf in her whole life and doesn't believe at love at the first sight ^^;; then i read other various replies. but most of them answered it's lust. i don't know for sure how old are romeo and juliet when they first met *better go check it up* but i think they're about 13 or so. how could teenager on that age have already felt about love at the first sight? they're only 13? geez..why am i bother about this thing anyway. it's supposed to be a light topic to discuss ^^;; so, how bout you, do you think it's a love, or lust?

sinking to the bottom @ 08:22 p.m.

Tuesday, July 8, 2003

how does it feel living as a mosquito?
wow...japanese people are so creative. they made sims game, but you play it as a mosquito ^^;; it's Mister Mosquito game. click here if you wanna know more about it. it's kinda funny to imagine yourself as a mosquito, i wonder how it feels *__* we have to suck people's blood, but we have to be careful enough so we don't get hit by them. not to mention the deadly insecticed ^^;; otherwise, you know what will happen to you ^__~
and yes, it's been 2 days since i slept over at campus again ;__; this internship report and student project thing make me sick -___- today, i have to sleep over here again, on a hard and cold floor T_____T

sinking to the bottom @ 07:25 a.m.

Sunday, July 6, 2003

my dear brother
it's been 9 days already since my brother went to kalimantan to study there. my parents took that decision cause he's getting naughty and naughty every day ;__; indeed, he's a good boy. but he's surrounded by a bad surroundings. and my dad was afraid that he's going to turn into a bad boy. i know it's hard for him of course. but he must pass through it. there in kalimantan, he lives with my uncle. i hope he will feel just like at home. study hard and keep your attitude there my brother. whoaa...i miss him already T___T this saying is really true: "you don't know what you've got till it's gone"
btw, today i'm staying over at my campuss again. sobs...i'm going to sleep on the chair/floor again ;__;

sinking to the bottom @ 10:51 a.m.

Thursday, July 3, 2003

fairy tale?
couple of days ago i watched Cinderella movie, the one with Brandy and Paolo Montalban as the stars, not the animated one. when it came to the scene where they both met & dance, i was hypnotized @_@. the gown, the song lyric, the music, and especially the dance had brought me into a world that i've never experienced before o_O seeing them dancing so graceful, singing so beautifully, wow...it's all that came out of my mouth. this kind of world is really amazing! the poor but kindhearted girl finally met and united with the man of her dream, who "unsurprisingly" the handsome and charming guy -___- "uugghh...is this kind of world really exist?" this question popped up in my mind. i dunno what kind of influence that this movie will bring, especially for the kids. for me as an adult *errr..hellooo..are you sure you're an adult?* this movie entertained me, but just for awhile. during the dancing scene, i imagined me & my mr. right as cinderella & the prince ^o^ *hohohoo* but then again, i realized that the real world isn't as nice as seen in the movie ;__; *based on my experience* nah, the hell with that, like i care -__- it's just a piece of my mind. and the conclusion is, i will always watch fairy tale movie, whether it is believed will bring bad influence or not. period!

sinking to the bottom @ 09:52 a.m.

Friday, June 27, 2003

[english mode on] OK, i'm gonna use english again. afterall, i started this blog in english in order to practice my english ^^;;
my friend had a presentation for her internship this morning. thanks god she got an A. sobs...when will i submit my internship report T___T i stuck with my report, and i don't have self motivation to do it -____- why am i so lazy lately? i'm thinking to extend my study until semester 9, but i'm still confuse. let's just see what will happen on 11th july, if i haven't finished my intership report until that day, i'm in a BIG TROUBLE and have to repeat my internship *poor me* recently, i've been thinking alot about my purpose in life, what will i be and do after i graduate, in the next 5 years, 10 years, and so on. i imagine whether i'll be a house wife or a career woman ^^;; hohohoho...if you guys know much about me, i bet you won't believe what i'm just saying ^o^
[serious mode on]it's about my other friends. i'm afraid they've already choosed the wrong path. and i don't know how to direct them back to the right path v_v this problem is very sensitive. i'd better not to talk about this in public. gomen ne
now i'm not gonna fall in the same hole twice ^^;; i had enough with this typing entry stuff. before submit this entry, i'll make a backup so i won't have to rant again like my previous entry ^^;; see ya

sinking to the bottom @ 04:22 p.m.

Thursday, June 26, 2003

daaaaaaammmmnnnnn!!!!!! i've written 2 long paragraphs and it wasn't posted T__________T
SIALAAAAAAAANNNN [indonesian mode on]. noraaaaakkk!!! ini nih yg ngebuat gue males ngeblog panjang-panjang. hikss...kalo marah itu emang enaknya pake bahasa sendiri ya, lebih puas, lebih mantep, lebih berekspresi. huahahahaha...kenapa gue jadi gini ya. udah ah, males nerusinnya, ntar gue jadi lebih ngalor ngidul lagi. bai bai ^o^

sinking to the bottom @ 10:00 a.m.

Wednesday, June 18, 2003

*in the middle of stress* hihihi...hahaha...errr...maybe i've already turned to be a wacky girl ^^;; this is all because that damn internship report. and my lecturer who supposed to guide me is going to german for 2 weeks!!! whoaaaaaa........damn it!!! and bout my project, hhh....i don't know what will it be -_- it all screw up T_____T

sinking to the bottom @ 03:05 p.m.

Thursday, June 5, 2003

frankly, i fill this entry just for my homework at my english course ^^;; so, i'm gonna start babbling about my daily life. okay, here it comes ^o^
yesterday, after i came back from my english course, i was going to watch Ally Mac Beal show on Star TV, but i felt very sticky, greasy and such. so i decided to take a shower, even though it's already late at night. when i was taking a bath, i heard a strange sound that looks like a sound of a crow ^^;; i kinda felt weird, and asked to myself this silly question "Do one of my neighbor keep a crow as a pet?" nah, that's impossible. why would anyone want a crow as a pet? isn't it a bit scary? after taking a bath, i told my little sister about what happened when i was taking a bath. and she said "Is it some kind of bad premonition? such as someone is going to die?" i felt shudder and asked her to stop saying it. and in a minute, i already forgot about it. my sis was in the middle of doing her homework, and she asked me to help her. she was making a crossword puzzle, and she had a difficulty on how to make it using a computer. so, as a good big sis, i helped her ^^;; when it finished, it's already 11.30 pm. i quickly grabbed my blanket, went to sleep, and hoped that i would have a nice dream.

sinking to the bottom @ 08:49 a.m.

Saturday, May 31, 2003

i've been staying over at my campus for 3 days and 3 nights. a little tired of course, cuz i have no futon to sleep on -____- and i'm frozen cuz i forgot to bring my jacket with me. i've got backache now as the result from 3 nights sleeping on the floor. my campus doesn't allow us to bring a futon or mattress. earlier, they even forbid us to sleep over at campus. damn, they're so stingy. what's so wrong about it? nuff my rant about my campus. as if someone cares about it ^^;;

sinking to the bottom @ 08:44 p.m.

Monday, May 12, 2003

i'm getting closer and closer to the deadline -__- aaaarrrgghh....what should i do?!?! lately, my head is full of many problems. they all come together flooding my head. and none of them is clear until now T____T i need to consult to someone who understands about Islam thoroughly. or i'll never be calm forever

sinking to the bottom @ 10:14 a.m.

Thursday, May 1, 2003

you're the reason i believe in love . and you're the answer to my pray from up above....[Shania Twain - From This Moment]. i'm listening to this song right now ^^ nice song, she really has a unique voice.
anyway, yesterday and maybe today too, i'm stuck with PHP T___T my group hasn't done anything significant for our student project. we all have no experience with PHP -___- and the due date is getting closer and closer. arrrrrrgghhhh!!!!
i'm going to Robotic Contest at my univ this saturday *excited* i'm so curious about it. i'm kinda surprised that it is my faculty that organises that contest!!! well, as faculty of computer science, it's not a surprise my faculty organise it, but i dunno, since i joined my faculty, it has never organised a big event like that. of course i'm proud. it's my faculty that i'm talking about ^o^
oh, i almost forget to mention that i got the best student predicate again. yay ^o^ i gotta work hard for the next term also. guess i'm done. ja!

sinking to the bottom @ 09:40 a.m.

Tuesday, April 29, 2003

finally, i wear hijab ^____^ i've thought about it a lot recently, and i made up my mind. i'm wearing it for all my life.
yesterday i had a final test at ILP. i really wish i could be the best student again. i'm quite confident with it, but who knows ^^;; wish me luck guys ^o^
speaking of exhibition, I will become stand caretaker. i'll be paid Rp 75.000 for 6 hours working there ^^;; damn, they're so stingy :P i should be paid more than that! nah, forget about it, look at the bright side, maybe i'll get more experiences and new friends there ^____^
now i gotta to do something very important, make my internship report T___T i hate doing that -___- it such a boring job. but no matter what, i still have to do it. bai bai...

sinking to the bottom @ 08:37 a.m.

Thursday, April 17, 2003

i really like my english course. it's one of the places that i never get bored. yesterday, we have a game. we are split into 2 groups. the teacher read the question and we had to figured out whether the sentence is right or wrong. at the end of the game, my group won easily ^o^
everday, there's nothing particular thing that i do. i only have 2 classes this semester that i have to attend. so, most of the time, i spend my time on web browsing and listening to the music. right now NRG - Hit Song is playing on my Windows Media Player. it's a energetic song. and a good song too.
guess that i have nothing to say neemore. so, bai bai...

sinking to the bottom @ 08:25 a.m.

Wednesday, April 9, 2003

*just comeback from dodo's board* i read some interesting threads there, and comment on some of them. it's good for my english lesson ^^ cause i'm not very fluent in it. and i'm too afraid trying to talk to a foreigner directly ^^;;
i wonder how 'coincidence' has a very strong effect to me. but naaahh...i won't tell you. let it be my secret ^^ *so unfair ^^;*
*got nothing to say more* ......... *wave good bye and leave*

sinking to the bottom @ 10:44 a.m.

Tuesday, April 1, 2003

wheee....it's APRIL MOP!!! i must be carefull so no one's gonna trick me or something ^^;;
btw, i kinda worry about SARS thing cause the mobilization rate between singapore and hongkong to indonesia is very high. if possible, i wouldn't allow people from countries who have been affected from SARS coming to indonesia. that virus is very dangerous! but it's impossible to do so :( i can only pray for that virus never come to indonesia and i hope that the scientists will find the anti-virus as soon as possible. amin...

sinking to the bottom @ 09:27 a.m.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

i'm so relieved now after 3 days without internet T_____T i'm glad that it finally up again today. but when i think of it, it has some good points. i did my internship works and my project which maybe i didn't cause i'm really into manga and such ^^;;
i kinda afraid now cause i'm alone in this lab. no one's around. they already left at 17.00 T____T
btw, oey, thanks for the compliment, you should visit my site more often if you wanna learn from me *jk*
now to think if it, i've never talked about my love life here. cause it's kinda embarrassing and i'm such a very introvert person about this kind of thing ^^;; but why i bring up this topic now? *surprised hearing this from herself* hey, i have to go now. my driver is already waiting for me.

sinking to the bottom @ 08:10 p.m.

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

today is a very tough day for me @__@ i had to deal with my group's computer. we have to connect it to the LAN and install all the software we need for our project. and to make it worse, i had to install VB .Net to that computer which took me 2 hours to complete it T_______T not to forget i have a midtest tomorrow and i haven't started to study yet cause right now i'm still at my lab waiting for my driver to drive me home.
it's raining outside, with thunder and flash all over the sky. damn, rain in depok is so scary. i read from a magazine, thunder in depok is one of the most frightening in the world. wow...no wonder, if there are so many broken trees on the morning after thunder hit depok at night ^^;;
i'm restarting my computer right now, i hope there's nothing wrong with it after i installed VB .Net *pray to Allah* ........[waiting].......i guess nothing's wrong with it ^^;; *jump happily* hurraaaaayyyyyy!!!!
btw, one of my blog's friend is celebrating his birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Kar-kun!!!! kyaaaaa...i love the guy in his layout. who is it? i guess that is the lead actor in yasha drama. guess that i'm wrong ^^;;
yesterday i sent an email to buy her mangas. i wanted to buy Akechi manga, but i dunno the fact that she lives in Japan. whoaaaaaaa......i can't stand the delivery cost. it's so damn expensive T_____T guess i have to buy it at Kinokuniya instead v_v bai bai...

sinking to the bottom @ 07:08 p.m.

Thursday, March 13, 2003

aarrrgghh...busy!!! that's all i can say right now. ja ne! >__<

sinking to the bottom @ 03:24 p.m.

Thursday, March 6, 2003

huahahahahaha....finally i got Saliva - Always.mp3 from netplugged.com. it's very hard to get since i couldn't use download manager and their sever limits the time to download it *sigh* i heard this song from channel V couple days ago. i'm surprised to know that i like rock music too ^^;
*back from visiting mars's blog* i saw that she took Endless Love quiz from this place. so i give it a try and i got Han Tae Suhk if i was a character in that show ^^;; i don't really like tae suhk cause he's the third person between Joon Suh and Eun Suh. and i am a supporter for their love ^^; so, if i got Tae Suhk, it means that i'm the bad person *grins wickedly* omg....that grin comes from me?!?! slowly but sure, i'm turning into Tae Suhk T____T forgive me Joon Suh. i'm a pest for your love >__<

sinking to the bottom @ 09:09 a.m.

Wednesday, March 5, 2003

how to understand Object Oriented Programming?!?! why it's so hard to understand? by tomorrow, i have to submit my use case, class diagram, and sequence diagram. and i don't really understand my module. it sucks >___< i dunno what to do now. damn it, these whole things really make my head spin @_____@

sinking to the bottom @ 11:39 a.m.

Saturday, March 1, 2003

lately i've been playing games at orisinal.com. the games there are sooooo cute XD the author's really good at making cute & funny games. i think he's so creative. i wish i could do things like him >_< my fave game right now are Bubble Bee, i got 7230 for that game, and the second one is These Little Pigs. but watch out, you can get addictive to these games, so, play it wisely folks ^^

sinking to the bottom @ 08:46 a.m.

Tuesday, February 25, 2003

my group had a presentation yesterday. me and maya had to do the presentation. maya was doing very well. but look at me, i was so nervous T____T i had a difficulty to speak in front of many people in a formal situation. what should i do to overcome it *sigh*

sinking to the bottom @ 08:08 a.m.

Wednesday, February 19, 2003

hehehe...haven't blogged for awhile ^^; *lazy girl :P* this morning i had a webpage construction class. we will learn about html, css, javascript, xml, php, etc. but i'm not registered in this class, cause i've already taken all the classes that i need. i don't wanna be bothered by the assignments, so i just sit and listen to the lecturer ^^;
lately, i've read so many mangas. here're the list: Kare First Love, Sensei!, Othello, Atashi wa Bambi, Hanakimi, Penguin Brothers, etc *wow...i didn't realize how many mangas that i've read* they're only the scanlation, i read the tankoubons too *published by publisher in my country of course, not the japanese one ^^;*
anyway, i added mark to my links. hi mark, nice to meet you ^___^
test yourself at fontlover.com! yay...i'm a gothic!!!

sinking to the bottom @ 09:43 a.m.

Friday, February 14, 2003

kyaaaaa....finally i got accepted as a member at dodo's message board ^___^ it's so hard to get in cause you have to answer 20 multiple choice questions about the rules there ^^;
btw, bad thing happened to me yesterday. i lost my wallet and handphone in a train on my way home T______T i hate that pickpocket!!! because of it, now i have to go to the police station to take care of it. this whole thing is really bugging me >___< i hope that he will return my card and my wallet *of course the chance is very tiny v_v* whoaaaaaa.....i hate it!!!

sinking to the bottom @ 08:26 a.m.

Friday, February 7, 2003

hurraaaayyy *again???* my page problem is finally solved. glad to see it working ^______^
lately, i've been trying to register as a member at dodo's message board, but they set the limit for new member for just 20 person each month *sigh* in fact, the reason i wanna register at dodo's board is i wanna find a host, just for giving me 5 MB or more space to upload my pic ^^; i wanna try my luck there ^^ but i guess i have to wait til next month, cause i can't post a message if i'm not a user v_v
btw, i took this test couple days ago. and it says like this: You've got Inuyasha(hanyou)! You are persistent. So persistent he's unable to shrug you off. Not that he minds though, even if he refuses to voice that out. ^_^ But really, you should not be that delusive.
hehehe...i really love inuyasha, but i think i like the ningen side better. actually, i took the test twice, i knew it's kinda cheat, but hey, it's just a fun test ^__~ okay, gotta blast *so jimmy neutron ^^;*

sinking to the bottom @ 04:016 p.m.

Thursday, February 6, 2003

finally, my project is finished. yattaaaaaaaaaa....XDD i'm gonna go back home now, and have a long sleep *yesterday, i only slept for 3 hours T___T* ...... *long pause* ......oh yeah, i haven't solved this homepage problem yet. i can't figure it out. is that mean that i have to change my layout again or i have to find a host that allowed me to access the files from another server? arrrrggghhh...whatever!!! -___-

sinking to the bottom @ 06:21 p.m.

Tuesday, February 4, 2003

hurraaaayy...finally i come out with new layout again *successfull beating up her lazy ass ^^;* comments & critics are welcome. but wait...i'm still can't figure out what's wrong with my javascript. when the html file still in local computer, there's nothing wrong. but now, when i already uploaded it on pitas server, it's not working. please help me T____T you can email me at okta199@puspa.cs.ui.ac.id or you can leave a comment on my guest book. my tag-board isn't working now because of this javascript thingy T___T okay, gotta go now. i have another project to finish ^^

sinking to the bottom @ 09:33 a.m.